Below are the 16 most recent journal entries recorded in thotsaboutthat's LiveJournal:

Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
4:32 am	2 Fast 2 Furious OK, so my subject line officially makes me a loser. Oh well. So classes are still going fine, things shouldnt get too bad this semester. Work at UPS still sucks, but oh well. I got my new car on Tuesday (new to me at least). It's a white '97 Grand Prix GT...with a 3.8L V6 engine. Less than an hour after driving it off the lot I had it at 115mph....showing furthermore that I'm an idiot. The new car has cheered me up greatly. Had one of my random stints of wanting to kill the world today...one of those ones where I start accusing others blindly for my unhappiness. Im gonna take this time to apologize to anyone i yelled at. Played frisbee tonight, which was super awesome. I've actually seen Nicole the past 3 days i think and everything seemed cool, so hopefully we can continue our friendship like it used to be. Emily is awesome, very very hott. I miss Richard, haven't hung out with him in almost two weeks...I must hang out with him tomorrow(Thursday). I'm hungry, just got home from work. Going to go eat, then crash. Laterz. Current Mood: happy Current Music: "Follow" - Breaking Benjamin (Comment on this)
Monday, August 30th, 2004
1:43 am	It's been a while.... It is amazing at how quickly my LiveJournal junkie status sank to average updater once class started. A week has gone by, which just means one less week of school and one less week of UPS work before I get my HUGE check and can quit. The only reason I need that check is because I'm buying a new car and it'd be easier to pay off if I keep working there. Been hanging out a lot with Emily lately...I like her a lot. I hope our relationship can soon progress beyond "friends that make out sometimes". She's a good kisser though so I suppose I am content with the current status right now. Class so far...Linear Algebra = Vectors...Calculus = Vectors.....Physics = Vectors....Macroeconomics = Principles of Economics (I'm sure this is in some way related to Vectors). It's really weird that the three classes I have that deal with numbers are all studying Vectors right now. Though it makes thigns easier, it makes it feel like I'm doing the same homework for 14 hours straight. I had a little party/shin-dig this weekend...so so far I have held up with the party every weekend clause I made myself sign. On a different note...I havn't been able to hang out with Richard in over a week which is a real bummer. Richard is one of the best people to have as a friend in the world, he's very cool about everything. I must hang out with him this week. Havn't talked to Nicole much lately, hope to hang out with her this week also. Oh yeah, hooray for the Grand Prix GT with the 3.8L V6 engine!!!!!!!! The speed is probably gonna get me in trouble. Time for bed, class at 10am...Laterz. Current Mood: content Current Music: "All Downhill From Here" - A New Found Glory (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 23rd, 2004
12:15 am	That Time Again Well it's that time again. Time for me to continue pursuing my Bachelor's in Mathematics and Actuarial Sciences. Time for me to get a new girl. Time for me to stop sleeping. And perhaps the most important part, it's time for me to start partying every weekend again. College starts back for me today, and with it I'm sure the normal routine shall return. Oh joy.... Threw a party on Saturday night...I think just about everyone I invited showed up. The count was around 40 different people throughout the night. Nicole showed up, which made me happy since it's a sign that we're still friends. Richard said he had a great time, that also makes me happy. I also got shitty as hell, I'm pretty sure I outdrank everyone, hooray for me. Did nothing on Sunday but sit around and play my new Xbox. I did go over to Emily's for a little bit, that was good times. Vicodin is beginning to kick in now, so I'm gonna go to bed. I hope the first day of class goes well....Laterz. Current Mood: restless Current Music: "Transistor" - 311 (Comment on this)
Friday, August 20th, 2004
11:36 am	For The Record I LOVE the rain. Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: "Beautiful Day" - U2 (Comment on this)
5:03 am	Balls of Fire A little piece from the song I am currently listening to: "let's get drunk, you can drive us to the harbor, wish upon a star, but do you know what stars are? Ball of Fire...." Of course they are fuckhead. Had a good night at Bearno's, called into work for Rebecca's party thing and because my collar bone started coming out of place again. 99% sure I'm giving UPS my two weeks notice of quitting because my body is falling apart. Unfortunately I'm thinking of going back into retail, probably at circuit city to work with K.C. and Tim. Hopefully it will be better than Best Buy because I'll act like i don't know anything about computers so that they don't hire me for the computer department (side note:all computer salesmen are full of shit, period...i know i was at Best Buy). Really gonna have a shindig at my place on saturday, hooray for alcohol, it is my friend. Well, I'm out of root beer now, so I'm gonna go to the store (yes at 5:10AM) now. Hooray for insomnia. Laterz. Current Mood: indifferent Current Music: "Down" - Something Corporate (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 19th, 2004
2:12 pm	Enjoy the View From Heaven Had a bunch of people over last night....think I'll list them cuz I'm a loser...Emily, Kate Floyd, Jessica Fox, Jaso, Julia, Scott, Jon, KC. Went to work, told my supervisor to go fuck himself and he laughed. Came home, went to sleep. Woke up today, ran to the mailbox...and yes....U of L started paying me today which ahs turned me into an "upper class bastard" once again. Party this weekend fuckers, on me of course...shopping spree today. On a sadder note I received a call shortly after my U of L from a friend of mine in gradeschool....their grandfather died yesterday. I spent many a days at this man's house in my younger years with my gradeschool clique. So all I really have to say is to enjoy the view from heaven, cuz it sure beats the hell out of mine here. Time to go an try to cheer myself up...Laterz. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
10:45 pm	Bored As Hell Good gosh, I am bored. So now that a large portion of my friends are out of town or back at college, I am realizing what was one of the best parts of the friendship I had with Nicole: I could hang out at her place at anytime. Even if it was just sit around, there was always something to do, I miss that now. I can still only hope that Nicole and I can get our friendship back into working order. I also can't get ahold of Richard right now. I wanted to go to dinner with him tonight but he wouldn't answer his phone...DAMN YOU DICK COX!!! (juss kiddin) So to pass the time now I have resorted to updating my LJ for the second time today...grr... Current Mood: bored Current Music: "Amber" - 311 (Comment on this)
7:22 pm	Funny Funny Funny So I have pretty much decided that I am a LiveJournal dork and junky, seeing as how I am updating at least once a day...or perhaps so much stuff happens in my life that I need to update all the time. Slept til' about 3 today, deposited my paycheck. Picked up Jen, went to lunch again. On the way back her mom called saying we better not have eaten because she cooked us dinner. So we acted like we didn't and ate another meal...I really felt like I was going to explode. Driving from Jen's house to my house we passed our gradeschool (St.Pius woo woo) where the 12 year old cheerleaders were practicing. I decided the instructors were hott, then Jen noticed that all of the instructors were girls that we went to school with. We stopped and talked to them for a while, turns out they are staying in town this semester, so I got all of their numbers and they all took mine. I guess it's time to start partying with my original posse from gradeschool and my highschool/college posse, hooray; and I was right, they are all hott. Left St.Pius and took Jen home so she could pack some more. Called Emily when I got home and talked to her for a bit, I think we might hang out later. Now I am sitting here on the computer, waiting for something else to happen. Laterz. Current Mood: good Current Music: "Divide and Conquer" - Story of the Year (Comment on this)
Monday, August 16th, 2004
9:06 pm	Another Day Went to Lexington on Sunday with Korey. Met up with Justin and then we threw a little shindig at Korey's new house. I feel sort of bad though because one of the girls I invited threw up on Korey's couch...in the house he moved into only yesterday. Heh heh, oh well I guess. Multiple times during the party I called Richard to check up on him at a party in Louisville; he is a hilarious man. Along with calling Richard I talked to Nicole a couple times on his phone. I know she wasn't trying to but a couple things she said made me feel bad for liking her...I shouldn't feel bad though because I can't control who I genuinely like and don't like. Came back to Louisville today and went to the doctor. Spent hours there for my shoulder and found out today that I have to start steroid injection therapy for my shoulder in a week or so, which means I'll most likely have to quit UPS. Perhaps I'll take another semester off from jobs, muahahahahaha. Left the doctor, went to Scott's. Hung out for a bit then left. Picked up Jen, grabbed some food, hung out at my place. Took her home after a couple hours, and now I'm sitting here counting down the time before I have to work. Rocking out hardcore style now, time for me to go. Laterz. Current Mood: content Current Music: "Blue and Yellow" - The Used (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 15th, 2004
3:49 am	Another night at it's end. So I only got to make a quick stop at St.Rita's before it got shut down. But instead of letting my night end there I decided to find some parties. So i gathered the crew and left for a party way the fuck out in Crestwood. We met up with another crew where this girl Emily Jameson(sp?) was...another friend of mine who is hott by the way. She is drunk off her ass, and she decides to cling to me, and make me promise to not leave her. So I promise her, and therefore take over care for her. Bout 20 minutes after getting there, the cops bust this party up, so I go to Will's house (and drive drunk-as-hell-Emily around). We then leave for another party(this one way the fuck out on English Station). This party also sucked, but they had a bonfire at least so I could deal with it. Eventually Emily wanted to go home so being her caretaker i decided to take her. The entire ride home she talked about how great of a guy I was and how she can't believe I am single. Hooray for drunk people that boost my ego, heh heh. I got her home safely and returned to my humble abode. Surprisingly i stayed 100% sober tonight, and had a great time nonetheless. I would date Emily in a second if she showed interest in me. I think that's gonna be my new catch phrase: "I would date (insert girl's name here) in a second if she showed interest in me." I think I have a disease of some sort, because thinking about it, I would probably date any of my friend's that are girls. They are all hott I believe. Oh well, what can ya do? Time to eat and head to bed, another night at it's end. Laterz. Current Mood: good Current Music: "Duality" - Slipknot (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 14th, 2004
9:43 pm	Time for an epiphany. "Razorblades" "Yeah, Yeah Walking example of you Wait for the silence Talking backwards to you It meant nothing to me Watching the world fall on you I'm keeping my eyes closed Now I can see what this means to you It meant nothing to me [Chorus] This wasted so many nights and again I've wasted so much time on a friend Too young, too proud to understand So this is the end Perfect timing for you You'll run 'til your legs break So here's my reminder of you It meant nothing to me [Chorus] This wasted so many nights and again I've wasted so much time on a friend Too young, too proud to understand So this is the end...GO! We should've seen this coming We should've seen this... YEAH! YEAH! [Chorus x2] This wasted so many nights and again I've wasted so much time on a friend Too young, too proud to understand So this is the end YEAH! This is the END!" So that's my current favorite song and after listening to it about 50 times in a row it sparked an epiphany...I need to stop giving a fuck. I try to hard to find a girl when I should really just be having as much fun as possible, I'm only 19 for fucks sake. That said, I'm about to head to St. Rita's picnic. My friends express concerns that I may be back on a pathway to my self-destruction; all i have to say is,"If I am...at least I'm having fun again." Don't get me wrong, I love all my friends dearly and I wish them nothing but the best...it's just time I start taking my own advice of "Pursue happiness, no one has the right to tred on your dreams". As a side note, I really hope Nicole and I can at least be friends in the end, losing any friend always causes great pain, but until I know the outcome...it's time for some fun. Laterz. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: "Razorblades" - Story of the Year (Comment on this)
4:11 am	I feel horrible. Went to Curtis' party tonight, where Nicole happened to be. How unbearably awkward. I feel bad because i know i made her and Richard both a little awkward, I hope they had good nights after they left Curtis'. I had a blast at his party. Sarah is an awesome friend to me, and I would date her in a second if she was interested in me, everyone at the party kept asking why I wasn't dating her yet. It's too complicated to explain I guess with her being Kate's best friend and all. Now to the part where I feel horrible, I let Sarah leave my house at about 4 this morning, knowing that she wasn't okay to drive. Less than 5 minutes after leaving my house, she called me, saying her window wouldnt roll up...so I told her to come back to my place. When she got there she came in crying saying it was bad. When I check her car it's obvious she has hit the right side of her car with something and it has shattered her window. Incidentally she is staying with me tonight and we will have to figure out a story to tell her mother in the morning. All I know is that I am a horrible person for letting her drive...what if she would have been hurt; I don't know if I could live with myself. I am a horrible friend for what I've done... Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: "View From Heaven" - Yellowcard (Comment on this)
Friday, August 13th, 2004
7:44 pm	back from "paradise" So i just got back from my vacation to Gatlinburg where i was supposed to have some days away from all the stress and chaos that is known as Louisville. Yes, i had a good time, but i couldn't escape from the stress of Louisville. Ok, starting with the bad and ending with the good this time. While in Gatlinburg it was brought to my attention that some of the stuff i said about Nicole and Richard should not have been said seeing as how i never really intended for them to know those things i said, i just typed them to let out some steam. Needless to say, i'm pretty sure Nicole now knows she is the object of my affection, something which she wasnt supposed to know until a later date, so thats fucked up. Richard on the other hand, our friendship is unscathed, he is one of the most understanding people on the planet and is a much better friend than i led him on to be a couple posts ago and i couldn't begin to apologize for what i said. I never should have used the word betrayed, it's too strong of a word to use when speaking of friends. So, Nicole and Richard, i apologize wholeheartedly. Time for the good. Gatlinburg was awesome. Scott and I had our motto of "Total Domination", we owned the entire damn trip. We let Steven in on it too because he is awesome. I spent at least 15 hours in the hot tub, which was great. The strip in Gatlinburg was alright, would've been better if more girls my age were there. It rained a decent bit, but I liked that since i was way up on a mountain. I allowed myself some recreational activities on wednseday (aka i got fucked up) and bothered probably everyone on my list of phone numbers. The next night was hilarious as we spent a good two hours throwing random objects at ceiling fans so that they would shoot out, then hung 3 rolls of toilet paper from it (which steven ended up getting caught in). And now i'm back in Louisville. All in all, i'm pretty happy right now. Now it's time to go....laterz. Current Mood: happy Current Music: "Razorblades"-Story of the Year (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
3:15 am	Friends cont'd So here is the continuation of the last post....i don't feel angry anymore, i'm with one of the four that make me happy, and im chatting online with another of them. They never fail me, seeing as how I am in a good mood. I suppose it's time for an explanation of these four people: Scott: Of the four best friends, he is the one i spend the most time with, especially during the school year...since the other 3 of the friends are bastards and go away to college (FUCK YOU ALL!!!) Met him in highschool and things went well from there on. Is currently across the room from me. Jen: Been my best friend longer than anyone else, our friendship dates back to gradeschool years. She is the kind of friend that I could go years without talking to and pick up right where we left off. Is currently at a Disney resort with her rich boyfriend's family for two weeks. Korey: Friend from highschool, always good when i need a dose of some redneck ways, he's good at that(especially when it comes to drinking). Is currently asleep like a little bitch at his house. Justin: The only friend I have that I have never been angry at...which is sort of weird because he insists that he is not my friend and that he hates me. Friends since highschool, he is probably the one friend that is closest to having the exact same ideas and views as me. Is currently in lexington, chatting with me on his PC. Those are the four true friends, until the day i die. Now i should go to sleep, because im leaving for Gatlinburg in like 7 hours, and it's gonna be one helluva trip. Finally able to truly get away from the bullshit that is known as Louisville Kentucky. I have already decided that Scott and i are gonna dominate this trip, so Tommy/Stephanie/Derek/Brittany/and Steven better not get in our way unless they wish to get trampled. Thats it for this update, I'll throw another update up after vacation. Laterz. (Comment on this)
12:26 am	Friends After a fabulous weekend in a different city with the object of my affection, I have come to a realization in my life...I have very few true friends left in this world. I am gonna have to say that my only real true 100% legit friends left are my friends Scott, Jen, Justin, and Korey. These four have been my group of best friends for years now, and even though I have picked up quite a few good friends along the way, these are the only ones left that I can absolutely trust upon. I care for these people 100% and they care for me 100%, it's a definite two way highway with these people, I get back what I put in, they make me happy. I don't wish to seem like an asshole, the majority of my other friends I'm fine with, we have good times. But there are a certain two friends in this group of "others" that I wished to make best friends, and at times it seems that they feel the same way, but I am constantly second guessing this as I am now. One of these people I speak of is the object of my affection that I spent the weekend in a diff. city with. Problem is, she doesn't know of my affection. I will refer to her as N. The other friend, who shall be referred to as R, is the best friend of N. I have some of the best times with N and R. Though I wished to do somethign with them tonight, and they expressed the same ideas, I never received that phone call even though I asked for them to call even if they were just sitting around. I feel betrayed at times, though it's selfish to feel that way since I rarely express this feeling to N and R. On many occasions I have had discussions with both of them of how in the past all of their good friends have betrayed them and lost touch, and I assure them I wouldn't do that. Even with this, I have the feeling that I hold them closer as friends than they hold me, I'm assuming this explains the feeling of betrayal, and the anger must stem from me feeling that they are doing to me (betraying) what they have hated in the past. I can't force them to be my best friends no matter how much i yearn for it and I'm probably being selfish, but oh well. It's bad to say it, but currently all my anger and hatred in the world somehow, either directly or indirectly, stems from these two people...but I could never stay angry at them, or even come close to hating them. Either way, I can't continue to go on angry and unhappy, and I can't tell N and R "this is the end" because I promised to never turn my back on them and I will never break a promise. My only option is death, but that is entirely stupid...so I'm stuck where I'm at. I feel as if I'm writing a novel now, so I'm gonna cut this entry short, maybe i'll continue later. But something to end on...Scott, Jen, Justin, and Korey...if you see this, thankyou for being my best friends, and N and R, if you see this, no matter how angry i get, I'll be there... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 24th, 2004
5:01 pm	A New Day Well, the first entry of thie livejournal thing. To be honest, I had been meaning to start one for a long time. It would seem that I have a lot of good stories to tell, all about my life, and that it would be fun to record them somewhere to share with even more people than my close friends. This is that record, for myself and others to laugh at and think about it. Enjoy. (Comment on this)